Please forgive me

Forgive me when i left you in kian kok all alone, i was forced to company my friend to go to the national zoo.I didn't want to leave you and i really wanted to be there to support you but all of a sudden my friend just forced me to go with him to the national park and i felt really bad if i rejected his request,please understand i really wanted to be there for you. Blame my heart for being to soft and blame me for not showing you how much you are to me,why can't i show you how much you are to me?

I want you to know that no matter what happens between us i would always love you,you saved me from the dark and brought me back to the light and gave me hope again in our relationship.Once when we broke up,i thought it was the end of the world for me and i tried my best to earn you back but in the end i was rejected.After that day,everyday when i went to school whenever i saw you,all i can feel is that my heart was aching and i was really depressed.After a while,when i nearly chose to give up on us,you suddenly told me that you love me back and it made me very very happy but i wasn't ready to accept you yet. Still in the end,we end up back together and i vowed that this time i must not lose you anymore.I vowed that i must show u how much i love you and how much you are to me.I would even change myself if it would make you happy,but please understand that there are somethings that are hard for me to change.

Please forgive me for being selfish and non caring,i promise that this time it won't happen again.Everyday i am changing myself for you and for myself but mainly its for you because i want you my dear to stop worrying about me and i want to show you that i can change myself for you.Please forgive me when i didn't trust you,i was afraid that you were going to make the same decision as you did on our previous relationship.I was really worried that i'll lose you again.Now i choose to trust and love you 100% and i want you my dear to know that no one will be able to change my love towards you and that you will always be my one and only and most important person in my life.Without you i can't live,without your love i can't sleep,without your love i don't think i can even live.So please forgive me my dear,i trully am really sorry.