Trying To Forget Her And Trying To Control My Emotions Towards Her

No matter how much i try,no matter how much i want to forget,i still can't forget my love towards you.I am trying very hard to forget you but no matter how much i try,YOU will keep appearing on my mind.Everynight when i sleep,i always think about you even if i don't want to,why can't i forget you? I want to forget you but it seems that no matter how much i try,my emotions always let me down.Everyday when i am in school,i always have the awkward feeling that you left me not because that you were not stable in your love life but it was because you had your heart for someone else.It really hurts me to see that there is a person who share the same interest as you do but i don't.No matter how much my brothers and sisters at school tell me to forget about you,it seems that i can't.Even if i wish not to stay with you,it seems that i still can't forget you.

My emotions are mixed up,i don't know whether i should be depressed,angry or happy after what i've seen today in school.Why can't my emotions just disappear so i can't feel depressed nor hurt?I hate to be this way but it seems i can't control my emotions,i want to be a person with no emotions so i can't feel the pain that is inside my heart now.You will not understand how much pain i am in now,i doubt that you even care if i'm still hurt or not.You have always been selfish and only care about what your decision is,you never care about what other people decision may be.No matter how selfish you are,you will still appear in my mind.Why can't i just move on with my life? I don't want to stay this way but still my emotions let me down.

I have been trying to be strong everyday,no matter how much i force myself to be happy in school.Whenever i see you i will still feel the pain and depression that you gave when we broke up.Why can't my emotions fade away until i become unemotional? Please just let me move on with my life,i don't want to be depressed and hurt over a girl like you.I hate how i am now,not able to smile whenever i want to.Will my emotions only be filled up with depression,sadness and pain?

What should i do now? Should i try hard to forget about her? Should i try my best to regain her love or should i just suicide and end my life just like that? I am so confused with my emotions,i am so lost.